Self introspection?

When you try your best, but you don't succeed

....
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse...

And the tears come streaming down your face
.....

....

Lights will guide you home

And ignite your bones

And I will try to fix me...

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What could be worse than feeling so sure you succeed but then things aren't going on as you've expected?

I've failed krismin pretest three times. And I have done THREE pretest which means I never did a good job on it.

Really, this happens in my first year. First semester, when I don't study well, I got bad scores. But in the second semester, when I tried harder..... the scores were worse. This-happens-most-of-the-time. And I'm so fed up. Maybe, before getting a revenge,

I should do some self introspections....

For a nice companion

it was a lonely day

when you came

and cheer me up


you're such a nice companion, pal

i was lucky to have you

but


for some reasons


i thought i don't suit you?

because

she was pretty and everything.

you had a good one, you should get a better one. not me.


thinking i should act logically this time, i decide to leave,move on.

and maybe you're wondering? or not? i dunno..

need some time to think

what you've given,

you've cared to


made me think

i can try harder to be good for you,
though it's hard


i will follow my heart. even it'll lead me to broken heart.


but when i got back to get to you
you've gone


it always has been too late.

when i wanted to change, you left

when i wanted to love you, you've disappeared.


so what can i say


when time feels so low

days are sunny

and this heart is so empty


the fact is you're my greatest cure




but you don't want to?