Self introspection?

When you try your best, but you don't succeed

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When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse...

And the tears come streaming down your face
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Lights will guide you home

And ignite your bones

And I will try to fix me...

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What could be worse than feeling so sure you succeed but then things aren't going on as you've expected?

I've failed krismin pretest three times. And I have done THREE pretest which means I never did a good job on it.

Really, this happens in my first year. First semester, when I don't study well, I got bad scores. But in the second semester, when I tried harder..... the scores were worse. This-happens-most-of-the-time. And I'm so fed up. Maybe, before getting a revenge,

I should do some self introspections....